It's a somewhat pathetic feeling when your world becomes dominated by the urge (or desperation) to sleep. Right now, I'd give up anything for a nap, even a three hour stretch of solid sleep at night. Before you have a baby you think, "I've gone without sleep, how bad could it be?" So I'll let you in on a secret: bad. I've gone 48 hours without sleep many times, even ran on 4-5 hours per night for a week. This is different. It's never sleeping more than 2.5 hours at once over many weeks (or months). When you actually do sleep, it's very light because your subconscious knows a baby is about to cry - so don't get too comfortable! And no caffeine. Ouch.
The little man has been sleep-rocking my world the last week. He has been going to bed at 2 a.m. (right!? Insanity!) and only teases nap time by sleeping for 20 minutes during the day. I'm reading sleep books (although lack of sleep makes it difficult to focus), doing all the "tricks" to help him fall asleep earlier (doesn't help Lincoln but Tyce is out like a light), and I'm laying off the Diet Coke. Hopefully this is a phase. A very short, little phase.
To me, sleep sounds better than eating Nutella out of the jar while shoe shopping with a black American Express. So if you'll excuse me for the short posts, my focus lies elsewhere (like how excited I am for Lincoln to conk off so I can get a little drool on my own pillow)! All I seem to have a passion for lately is a few hours of shut-eye, and how sad is that? My main point: baby boy owns me. Am I the one in charge here? I forget...
"To me, sleep sounds better than eating Nutella out of the jar while shoe shopping with a black American Express." This is the greatest thing i've ever heard. It should be embroidered into a pillow. :) I'm sorry you are so sleep deprived! I'll come watch him for you so you can take a nap! :)
ReplyDeleteMy mom says I was a sleeper, my sister not so much --like she didn't sleep through the night till she was five. Good luck with the sleep books--Mom says throw out rules, where ever he'll sleep, go for it =)
ReplyDeleteUgh, been there. But I honestly slept with Eli for so long because this very reason. The feeling of my body against his comforted him and gave us longer stretches. Maybe once he starts really being mobile he will be more tired. I hope! It gets better. Eli always slept well, but I had to he right there which is tough too, but at least I was rested! Love that you still have humor!!!
ReplyDeleteAwww poor mom! He'll be sleeping all night in not time. Hang in there!
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Dude BRUTAL!!! Okay when I get back into town lets hang..then Link and I can become buds and he can come hang out at my house for a few hours so you can sleep....or shop...wherever your priorities lie. Deal? Deal!
ReplyDeleteI feel your pain Mama…it's a HORRIBLE thing! J still doesnt sleep through the night but we did major sleep training about 5 montHS ago so now he does go longer stretches almost all the way til morning but it is BRUTAL, I remember that. He used to be up at least 10 times a night! Here's to hoping it ends soon and by the way, those sleep books don't really help when you don't even have the time to read them..lol..and when you do, it's SO hard to follow through with it, it's miserable to hear them cry :(
ReplyDeleteSAD! But you are hilarious! I can't even imagine how you feel. All I can think about is sleep and I get like way too much sleep. Hopefully it will just be a phase! I'm sorry and try to get some rest! My fave part of this post is when you said... ":bad" ha ha!
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